Wednesday, March 20, 2013

Kawan Menangis

Assalamualaikum.

Entry ini, tajuknya ditulis sudah sekian lama. Kira saya, pada tahun 2012. Tahun dugaan yang begitu hebat bagi saya. Drama2 lewat sebelum itu, 2003, 2004 dan 2008, tidak sehebat 2012, pada hemat saya.

Kawan menangis? Sukar dicari dalam dunia ini. Sejuta, mungkin ada beberapa orang sahaja. Kawan ketawa memang ramai, tapi bila dunia kita kelihatan gelap, sukar untuk mencari kawan yang akan kekal disamping kita.

Saya rasa, saya amat bertuah. Mungkin kerana saya terlalu memilih kawan2 maka, walaupun saya tidak ramai kawan, yang berada di sekeliling saya adalah sangat baik. Sangat memahami. Dan saya sayang kamu semua. Tatkala dunia mengeji saya dan lebih gemar mendengar berita2 yang belum tentu benar, kalian memilih untuk bertanya apa sebenarnya berlaku. Dan memilih untuk memahami apabila saya tidak mahu berkata apa2 kerana terlalu lelah. Saya lelah untuk memberi penjelasan daripada A - Z. Saya mahu masuk ke dalam gua dan berlindung daripada ribut petir yang merupakan hidup saya pada waktu itu.

Kini. Siapa kata, walaupun kita telah melalui kepahitan demi kepahitan, kita akan kebal. Siapa kata, walaupun kita fikir kita sudah imun pada semua tohmahan. Saya lebih senang berdiam diri apabila orang lebih gemar mengeji. Biarkan mereka menghakimi diri saya. Yang penting saya tahu siapa diri saya. Ingat, orang yang melukakan hati orang lain akan bertemu hari yang penuh kelukaan suatu hari kelak.

Berdiam diri bukan bermakna saya mengalah. Kerana apabila yang kita ucapkan dan tuliskan itu akan melukai hati orang, lantas untuk apa diucap dan ditulis? Jika kita berfikir, apa yang kita ucapkan dan apa yang kita tulis itu akan melukai kita, lantas, usahlah diucapkan dan dititip kepada orang lain.

Saya tidak pasti apa yang menanti saya pada masa hadapan. Namun, semoga saya terus bertabah menghadapinya. Semoga kita semua mendapat kesudahan yang baik hendaknya, Amin.

Sesungguhnya, harga syurga itu adalah mahal. Apabila diuji, itu maknanya kita memang layak dan mampu menghadapinya. Allah Maha Pengasih dan Penyayang. Carilah kasih sayang dan redha Allah, nescaya kita akan bahagia dunia dan akhirat. Kerna, kawan2 menangis itu adalah kurniaan daripadaNya jua.

Terima kasih sahabat!


Wassalam.







Of Athletes and the Hot Sun

Assalamualaikum.

I've been away for some time. Busy with reality.

And of course, me being me, observing people. This time? I've been so fortunate that I had been assigned to be on duty on the field. Yes, under the hot blazing sun, watching kids, oh, no, athletes run and run and run.

At first, I was so pissed at being selected. I mean, of all the things on my NOT-TO-DO list, it is running. Or whatever it is related to sweat, and hot sun and sunburned. My whining at the beginning: That I was going to turn into Dayang Senandung. But a friend teased me and said: Hey, remember that Dayang Senandung is royalty!

But, there's a popular saying that said, when life gives you lemon, make lemonade. So, yeah, that's what I tried to do for the past 4 days.

I wondered, what drove these kids to run? And whatever it is that athletes do. The closest I came with being a sportswoman was during those Sports Day in school and during KPLI. Hahahah. And of course, hating every moment of it, since it was so so so hot!

The way I see it, there's this group of kids that is very passionate about sports. Maybe, me, being the nerdy kid back in school, I never realized they existed in school. You know, the hot guy that is popular in school, either he is a football player, or maybe the athlete that wins every event in school. Hahahah. I mean, I was so busy burying my nose into those lovely, lovely books that I never knew there was this group of people that love to sweat under the hot sun. That's why, my classmates, usually the guys, always teased me, and they only dared after we were no longer in school, that my life just revolved around my books.

Oh well... That's because my priority at that time was getting the best results out of SPM and then entering university and getting scholarship so that I wouldn't be burdened with PTPTN. I think, I only noticed guys when I was in university. Hahah. And of course, me being me, I went for brains instead of looks. I mean, come on! If he doesn't read, and doesn't know anything, what are you going to discuss? The best eye cream? Or the colour of your contact lenses? Hahahah.

I digress, yet again. I saw how frustrated some of them when they lost. Maybe, to them, it's the same thing as my own disappointment when I didn't score during my exams.  I could relate to that. Everybody is looking for success, and it may not be in the same field.

So, yeah. Everything happened for a reason. Being under the blazing sun for 4 days ain't that bad. At least, I learned that athletes that are the new breed. I didn't notice them before. And I would never say that my type is the athletic type. I mean, he would force me to run. And I hate running. I hate sweating. Hahahah. Oh well. The future? I have no idea. So in the mean time, I will just go with the flow.

Wassalam.







Thursday, March 7, 2013

Doa

Wahai Tuhanku yg hidup lagi berdiri sendiri, dgn Rahmat-Mu  aku memohon pertolongan, maka semoga Engkau berikan memperbsiki urusan kehidupanku sama sekali dan janganlah Engkau serahkan kepadaku sendir walau sekelip mata. Dan janganlah juga kurang daripadanya. Wahai Tuhan yang sebaik- baik permintaan... Amin.

Monday, March 4, 2013

Seth Godin's Tips on Saving Money

Assalamualaikum.

This entry serves as a reminder to me.

Live below my means, Ani. That means:

1. No restaurants.
2. No clothes shopping.
3.No cable tv bill.
4. No Starbucks.
5. Carpool to work.
6. Skip vacation this year.
7. Act like you have virtually no income!

But I have to try these I think. For long term goals. But remember, Ani: Don't be stingy. Differentiate between saving money and becoming a miser!



Quotes on a Monday evening....

Assalamualaikum...

It's been a while since I shared some quotes that I really love right?

So, to avoid this blog from being a place for just to vent, here are the quotes:

- How do you change a victim? Stop seeing the victim.

- Use We/ I instead of They/ You.

- Acceptance beyond forgiveness.

- Be a yardstick of quality. Some people aren't used to an environment where excellence is expected.

- Kita layak, patut dan mesti diuji kerana kita hamba, bukan tuan apalagi Tuhan dalam hidup ini. - Pahrol M. Juoi.

- When Allah tests you, it is never to destroy you. Whenever He removes something from your possession, it is only to empty your hands for an even better gift.  - Ibn Qayyim.

- This world can't break you, unless you give it permission. And can't own you, unless you hand it the keys - unless you give it your heart. And so, if you have handed those keys to dunya for a while, take them back. This isn't the end. You don't have to die here. Reclaim it and place it with its rightful owner - ALLAH.

- Surah Ali Imrah: 134 :

"Iaitu orang yang mendermakan hartanya pada masa senang dan susah dan orang yang menahan kemarahannya dan orang yang memaafkan kesalahan orang lain. Dan (ingatlah) , Allah mengasihi orang-orang yang berbuat perkara baik."

- Not he who has much is rich, but he who gives much.  - Erich Fromm

- How far you go in life depends on you being tender with the young, compassionate with the aged, sympathetic with the striving, and tolerant of the weak and the strong. Because someday in life, you will have been all of those...  - George Washington Carver


- Courage is resistance to fear, mastery of fear, not absence of fear.   - Mark Twain.