Signs of aging?

I know I am getting old when the only rock songs I could listen to are the mellow ones. Just now, Korn was playing, and my eardrums couldn’t take it. I remembered fondly the good old days when I could listen to Metallica, Nirvana, Greendays, Oasis etc. I am not scared of growing old, because I hope with age, comes wisdom. But, there is always a but; I am scared of becoming forgetful. I don’t want to lose my memories, be it fond ones or even bitter ones -especially the memories of my childhood.

I don’t have that idyllic childhood that others do. My parents trained my sister and me not to be too clingy. When others were picked up by their parents, we either walked home or took the public transport. I still remember during my SPM years, I cycled to and fro for tuition, at night! Imagine how scary it was after 10.30p.m.! And of course, being in Terengganu, there were the rainy seasons. However, the hard times made me appreciate the good times. And I am glad that my parents trained me to be this way, because it made me the person I am today. For those who are close with me, they’d understand what happened actually. Below is the lyrics of the song September, by Daughtry. The song suited my mood – and also because my birthday is in September!

September

Half the time passed away

All the trouble that we gave

And all those days we spent out by the lake

Has it all gone to waste?

All the promises we made

One by one they vanished just the same

All the things I still remember

Summers never looked the same

Years go by and time just seems to fly

But the memories remain

In the middle of September

We still play out in the rain

Nothing to lose but everything to gain

Reflecting now how things could've been

It was worth it in the end

Now it all seems so clear

There's nothing left to fear

So we made our way by finding what was real

Now the days are so long

That summer's moving on

Reach for something that's already gone

Yeah

All the things I still remember

Summers never looked the same

Years go by and time just seems to fly

But the memories remain

In the middle of September

We still play out in the rain

Nothing to lose but everything to gain

Reflecting now how things could've been

It was worth it in the end

Yeah we knew we had to leave this town

But we never knew when, and we never knew how

We would end up where we are

Yeah we knew we had to leave this town

But we never knew when, and we never knew how

Never knew anything

All the things I still remember

Summers never looked the same

Years go by and time just seems to fly

But the memories remain

In the middle of September

We still play out in the rain

Nothing to lose but everything to gain

Reflecting now how things could've been

It was worth it in the end